Spam!

Honestly, they're spamming my blog?? You just can't get away with them can you? Well, besides going away for 10 days, muhahahahah.

Anyway, with a simple click the stock profile they so kindly gave me as a comment is gone forever in the cyberspace.

Went to meet with a few researchers in med school today. And realised that my ideas are still way too sketchy. It's annoying. I thought I have things sorted out until now. But then again it's okay, it's still early in my project and I can still rectify it I guess.

Also figured something interesting: since when do we divide our day into little one hour segments? It's funny isn't it. Everything seems to fall into this hour segments. I blame it on Outlook. :P

With a bit of luck this should be my last blog update until 1st September. Meanwhile eat well, drink lots of water, exercise, take care. I'll see you guys after my long over-dued break. :D

Chronic Laziness

For two days in a row, I'm just not motivated to do anything. I think it's just that my body finally catch up to the fact that I've been on overdrive for a while. It's quite a change, to actually have nothing to do for the day. Well, besides trying to figure out how to get into med school tomorrow.

And then, it's holiday time! To unwind and do absolutely nothing for 10 days. I assume after that I would be able to get back to working on my actual stuff. I honestly can't be bothered working at the moment. I've all the little bits and pieces that needs to be done. I think I should shut down for a little while...

Did you know...

• ... that the majority of readers of Catcher in the Rye are women?


• ... that airing of the American remake of The Office is cancelled in Australia after a week?


• ... but they're now making a NEW season of it??


• ... that the middle name of Wednesday Adams is Thursday?


• ... that in Fight Club, the name "Jack" (as in "I'm Jack's colon") was changed from "Joe" in the book to avoid conflict with Reader's Digest?


• ... that there are almost no legitimate licenced mechandise of Calvin and Hobbes because Bill Watterson hates the idea of merchandising?


• ... that 4'33" is 273 seconds, and that absolute zero is -273°C?

It's amazing what you can learn in through bordom in one day with wiki... :P

Busy day....

It's amazing how even though I've just finished all my 1st year crap I still manage to be busy for a whole afternoon. I've been busy trying to get competition application done, and organising meetings before I'm off to my break, etc etc. Lucky it's not really intesive work, and it's not THAT bad. Tomorrow I might even head into uni and start some real proper work. :P

For the rest of the day I think I'll just look at my poster a bit more and clean that up a bit. Hopefully that'd mean I don't have to look at it when I'm away on my break.

Alrighty. Back to trying to utilise my artistic skills... :P

Cookie overdose

Eeeeek! I was convinced to have cookies for lunch today, and I've only had two... it's already giving me a cookie overdose. I think I'm going to be put off cookie for at least a week. :P

Right now I'm doing the manial task of correcting my report. I can't wait til I can get awya... not long to go now. Hopefully I'll finish this today.

Okie, back to editing...

Weeeeeeeee :)

Yay I passed my provisional year for my PhD. :D Yay!

Not that it's TOO surprising, but it is still a big weight off my shoulders. Sometimes I'm not too sure why I stress so much, but hey, it worked :P

Anyway, people tends to think I have a very good seminar, so I'll just try to believe that and be happy. (Maybe I CAN talk after all) SO yeah, great :)

NOW I can think about holidays :P

31 minutes

Yay me! I've managed to cut 7 minutes off my presentation without cutting any slides. Simply by shutting up when I should :P

Anyway, I'm not REALLY stressing too much, but it's still on my nerves. But I think it'd go well. I hope so. :)

I think I can. I think I can.

The issue of seeking help

I'm not gonna say I'm a proud person, mostly because I do have an inferior complex, but I do have a thing about seeking help. Probably because I don't like bugging people. But finally, I got my first meeting with the counsellor, rather than trying to diagnose myself and getting someone to talk to me from outside the situation. And really, it helps a lot. It really does.

Admittedly I didn't talk about ALL my problems, I can go on for days. But just mainly on the ever so popular family issue. Granted compared to Dr Phil they are small issues, but it's driving everyone nuts and really, it's not helping. But today's session was really good, even just knowing I'm not the only one having this sort of problem. And just having some tips on how to deal with it.

IN a strange way it helps with my other issues, even without really directly talking about it. It's strange isn't it?

Well. That's my day. Now I'm all happy and stuff, I can start with my presentation again. :P

Lack of sleep

This update is brought to you by the email update. Be
VERY grateful if it appears. I know a few times when
it just get lost in cyber space. *sigh*

Didn't have enough sleep last night, So most of today
is a bit of a blur. Problem with me is that if I know
I have to get up early the next day I often stress about
not getting up early enough and then I can't get to sleep
at normal time.

I would've written more if I'm not so sleepy, but meh, I
AM very sleepy. So I think I'll just stop now and try to
wake myself up before I see my supervisor. *sigh*

How to be successful with women...?!

My dear brother told me his friend (admittedly a bit of a player.) sent all the guys a copy of an ebook called "How to be sucessfuly with women". After that enlightenment, my brother has came up with the following comclusion:

He needs a haircut.

I'm sure there's more wisdom in the book then get a decent haircut. But it's almost scary that they actually have a book on how to deal with women. I thought even us women can't figure out ourselves. And when I pointed that out to my brother, he just grinned and said "I know. The book said that too."

CURSE THAT DAMNED BOOK!

*ahem*

Anyway, I can't say the conclusion my brother came up with is completely unfounded. We would like to think that we aren't shallow. But the fact is, well, we are. We're just shallow in different ways from the guys. That's why make over shows like queer eyes is popular agmonst women. It's like giving us the reassurance that it's okay to be shallow. That's why women think Carson is a godsent. (Not just because I still thinks he's really cute, although I do have to say no to guys wearing pink. o_O) When it all comes down to it: heck, you still need a certain physical attraction you know.

Not that that's all there is to it. You don't have to be drop dead gorgeous to find someone, and you don't need to be a model to be successful with women. Besides, most of the pretty boys ended up just being a player and can't settle for something emotional anyway. The way I see it, those books teach you how to be successful with women, but if you want a real solid relationship with a woman, heck, just be yourself. You'll be better off in the long run.

The Waiting Game

The supervisor very so kindly told me that we still can't find a time that suits everyone, so the seminar is still being delayed indefinitely. Great.

Anyway, after that I've been somewhat discouraged. I mean, I've been looking forward to a break for SO LONG, and now they're telling me they don't know when I can have my break. *sigh*... Honestly this can't be good for my stress level. I want a break dammit. o_O

Right now I got the main body of my report done, just got abstract and conclusions and whatnot to do now. Wish me luck. :|

Lots of random stuff

I'm going to post all my random thoughts of today in a random manner. Take whatever you like to read.

Laser Pointer and the Cat

I got a laser pointer yesterday so I can actually point to things when I'm doing my presentation. Pete mentioned that the laser pointer drove his cat nuts, and for some reason I was convinced to try it on my cat. Ruby kept chasing the little red dots on the ground, and get rather confused when it disappeared. I can't help but to think it's cruel, the cat is chasing somehting that can never be caught. But no one else seems to share my view on this new game, and thinks it's rather good for the cat really. I just don't know. Pete said I'm thinking too much and assume the cat think like a human. Maybe I am. Maybe cats just like to chase things and I'd never understand it.

Creationism

Oh boy! Bush is thinking of teaching creationism (or "Intelligent design") in high school along side with evolution to expose the kids with different views. I kinda wonder HOW it actually fits in a science class. I quite like the way I was taught in high school: in religious studies we were taught creation stories, not just the Catholic model, but also the Maori ones, and taught about how these stories comes to be, and later on learn about evolution in Biology (well, I lied. Evolution was taught in 7th form, I dropped bio after 6th form :P). And I really don't see any conflicts. Saying evolution occurs doesn't really contracdicts with the belief that there is a God. And I went to a Catholic school! I just don't understand why Americans are so hung up on creationism and against evolution.

Pie

I'm just wondering how much money we could people are serveing pies for a wedding reception? Since food is the biggest cost, you'd think they'd try to cut cost there. Granted it's almost as tacky as that American couples who held their wedding reception in McDonalds, but it's just interesting to see... :P

Message to Baggy

I hope you had a bit of time to calm down a little. I haven't posted a reply to your blog because I thought it might be better for you to think things through and just read that again. I'll write an email to you later.

Message on a whiteboard

That reminds me of the whiteboard in the postgrad kitchen. A chinese message appeared, saying something like "Havn't seen you for a while. I thought I should let you know that evrything is real. I should let you know that I think I should go home. Goodbye". People were also writing on the board asking what the heck does it say (it's in chiense, not everyone can read chinese). I was gonna do a translation for the others, but it doesn't seem, right, I guess. I don't know. Although of course this could very well be some practical jokes. Not a very good one but hey.

Progress Report

Just realise I got more than I thought I had to do for my report, but at least I'm writing something. Should finish by the end of this week. I hope.

Background ambient sickness

My friend once said that I always seem to have some form of background sickness going on, with every now and again something more serious (being that I might actually have to take a day off for it). I thought that was nonsense before, but now when I think of it, there's probably some truth in it. I'm not too sure if it's because I'm a bit of a hypochondriac (fortunately one who's scared of doctors.), or maybe I never really take care of my body enough.

I lost count how many day I've been having this dizziness now. In a way I think it's stress induced, since normally it's worst when I'm stressed out (it was worst in my final year of undergrad, during the time which I called "Fortnight of Hell"). Mum thinks I'm not drinking enough water. I just think I'm just a bit run down and my body's telling me to slow down a bit. Whatever the reason is, it doesn't help that I have this report due and I'm trying very hard to finish it asap.

The family situation doesn't help, as always. And I think I've learnt to just ignore it instead of solving any of the problems. Probably doesn't help my stress level. But hey, what else can I do? It's not like our parents actaully taught us to face the problem. Heck dad distinctly taught me the best thing to do is keep quiet. Look at the amount of good that does. And it's not like dad actaully listens. So hey, the best I can do is just to nod along.

*sigh*

Petey has a blog! :D

Well, he started one anyway, and hopefully he'll fill that in every now and then. He just has a way with words (and I'm not saying that just because I'm baised) and well, I'm sure his blog would be less about what he's having for lunch and actually say something. :P (Unlike this humble blog you're reading now :P)

Anyway.

Just got another thing out of the way this morning, so now I can get back to working on my report. It's not that hard but it's just a matter of motivation really. And everytime I'm trying to start I start to feel dizzy. I'm starting to wonder whether it's actually psychological.

I think the more stressed out I am, the more I just want to avoid it. It's not healthy I know but I can't seem to help it. Sometimes I wonder if I'm cut out to be an academic afterall. But then again, maybe I am, I just need to stop trying to run away from it.